Some days, it’s hard to get out of bed and do stuff. Some days I just lack inspiration to do life stuff.
Maybe I want to do things, I wish I had the motivation, or I just get upset with myself for not doing all the things on my to-do list. But it’s too hard.
A few days ago was one of those days in a string of a number of very similar days. Feeling drowsy, lazy… and generally dissatisfied with the fact that I feel that way.
Days like that, I watch Japanese videos online and pretend it’s language practice (sometimes it genuinely is), I’ll watch documentaries on history, nature, science, wildlife, I’ll watch political commentary videos – if nothing else, to at least feel like I’ve done something with my day. I try to fold laundry, or tidy the house a bit while I do this.
Sometimes though, I feel a rush of motivation, of inspiration, of energy to do all the things I want to, and make a positive change in the lives of other people on earth.
Listening to Dr. Roberta Bondar speak was like riding on a shimmering wave of positivity and inspiration. She is Canada’s first female astronaut, and the first neurologist in space. She has degrees in zoology, agriculture, experimental pathology, neuroscience, and medicine. She’s a gifted photographer, researcher, traveler, author, and environmentalist. She has her own foundation, a charity that educates about the environment in creative and exciting ways. Oh, and by the way, she’s also an amazing presenter and speaker.
What a trooper.
I left the event completely enthralled. Her photographs were beautiful, her storytelling captivating, her passion contagious.
I felt like a child: I want grow up and be like her! For the first time in my life, I almost wanted to travel to space.
Even though I have days where I don’t have the energy to converse with many humans and I’m too much of a blob to do much of anything, I still hope that one day I can be an inspiration to someone. That some young human will look at me, and find motivation to follow their passion.
My hobby is learning things.
My life goal is to make positive change for those around me, and to one day, be someone’s role model.
It’s a challenge, but that’s okay. I am me, and will be me forever. Even on rough days, I just need to remember who I am and where I’m going.